driven attitude motivate others
My sign says this:
The Bottom Line
Game playing can be a good thing for you right now. Your skills are razor sharp.
In Detail
Playing games can be a good thing and a bad thing today — it all depends on how skilled you are. No one will be expecting you to be a strong aggressor right now, so that might be the perfect tactic! You certainly don’t want to be manipulative or deceitful — you’re too mature for that. But there’s nothing wrong with thinking two or even three steps ahead of everyone else involved. Stay honest and stay respectful, but stay on top of all your options at all times!
Going against the system…
I learned a lot lately. Be it professionally and also personal. I’m not talking like the bear. But one word that hit me is reflection.
I read about melmaureen’s reflection on her last two posts before she flew off to some hideaway. It did touched me coz earlier I was thinking about the same thing. Going through some mind tripping journey. We should spend more time wif our parents. Mine the most that I’m gonna be wif max probably another 15 years. Insya-allah. I don’t come from a perfect family… it was kinda dysfunctional but we managed to get through.
At this time I fear that I will lose them especially my mom. Eventhough we are so so panas together but she inspires me a lot. To be independent and to seize opportunity. She work hard to this day and nobody can I even compare her with. I always measure myself up to her. If she can why can’t I and if I can why can’t other people???
I met few driven people lately. Those who wants to make it happen. Those who want to live their dreams. Those who has the guts to take the risks. I envy them and it smack me that I’ve been sitting on the pause button for too long.
I have to make it happen. I have to live on my dream and I have to dare to take the risks.
Gotta take the small steps. Already.
Taking another baby step. Thank you for opening up my eyes. I agree when you said "What’s the point of living when you have no objective in life.. Gotta make it big.."
How big is how you want it.
I’m thankful that at least there’s positive vibes around eventhough I’m going through a tough time.
Yeah… I need the positive energy to make it happen.
Life is too short. Cliche as it sounds…
Behind dark clouds there’s a silver lining
It’s been awhile… Ya.. that I didn’t go down town to partay.
I need it this time. Yes. Blow my heads off for f*ck sake. After a week of mental torturing and more to come. I kinda need a break and need to recharge. The mood to dress up and socialize and mingling around is back.
Need to recharge my happy system.
It was good. It was fun. It was well a blast.
Can be addictive too. Ha ha…
Sagis… love to have fun. Can’t break away tat from us. At any stage
Oh one nice statement I received tat night… "You have the menyampah look don’t you…"
I said it nice why coz when am out to partay I’m not there to impress anybody. I just wanna dance the night away and darling I can even afford my own drink and if you can’t be a gentleman and even offer any to a gal think am gonna kiss your ass for tat. Dream on!
Well… people has the right to express themselves. So I just smile away la. But hey, some other people find me irresistable too! He he…
I know lately I’ve put on my bitchy mode most of the time. Blame the bear!
Ishh.. My bluetooth dongle isn’t working la pulak. Ishhh… Gotta use the cable. Yesh ma peeps I got ma N93 *beams*
First shot:
I’m a gadget freak but tis one is kinda disappointing la coz capturing image is damn hassle la gotta rotate the screen everytime to snap. So leceh but the video whoa damn smooth. Very impressive. Besides I like it when I shut the phone there’s ringing sound which I find very amusing. Self entertaining haha!
Then again… I gotta grab my hand on T50.. doh..
The fruits look so juicy and shiny kan. Captured at a fruit stall in KL Sentral wif NaniBushy to look for kebaya top she’s wearing for the wedding.
Anyway, more outings and social commitment over the past week…
Lotsa makan, makan and makan. PHEW!
BBQ @ LeedsCorrupt place. We chipped in and my face, hair all over were smoked! I did fanned them okay!
Last open house for the year in Saloma. This time the food is good. Thanks As..
We did our Laundry on weekday…
Amazing view from DanielGadgety’s penthouse in Mt. Kiara. He wanna sell off his plasma tube for half of the price. I’m in queue… haha..
Found a quaint nail spa just around the corner of my place. Wee.. self-indulgent. Ya it kinda cost me a bomb!
SkyBar. Not really worth checking out unless you want a very very quiet night. Why not do tat at home?!
Laundry again wif the hip hoppers!
Of course I spend ma weekend back home wif bro and the familia…
Splendid innit. Love ya all….
*chanting* "weekend!weekend!weekend!"
So do you thing am irresistable???
Social Addict Party Animal | Comments (3)mind map my ass
Oh dear… only if my card allows this.. (not the bank) but self-imposed quarantine
Have you apply any mind mapping to your work schedule? Geee… I can save my time by just jotting down on my to do list rather than to open the software, create and analyze my task.
This is the brilliant idea of the bear. Yes. He likes to make even a simplest thing complex.
I guess the longer I entertain this on my next check up, my favourite Dr. Tang will tell me that am suffering from brain hemorrhage *choi*
My colleague burst to tears. Again. She said she’s confused. I told her you are just upset and angry and can’t really channel it out. Mind me she’s experienced enuf to handle such crap but like I said this bear is one rare species we’ve encountered.
Cultivate culture, articulate ideas WOW! everytime we stepped in the front door we were all sucked up to this management mental institution that he dreams of. He adores audience. He enjoys blabbing about the knowledge that he possess. Making our life miserable coz he prolly one sad ol lonely man who has nothing, no one (wait he wants us!) to show off to. I hope he doesn’t collapse one day coz his motor-mouth never shuts. His brain need a pause button. If he does please god not in front of me coz I would feel guilty of just ignoring and whiz away.
A gazillion tons of appreciation to whom creates blog.
Maybe I should share wif Claire to let her anguish via blogging.
I’m off to some open house in town wif AsnieSunnies in a bit. If the bear knows tat am just 3 floors up and blogging at my friend’s office pouring out all my hatred towards his approach maybe I should just fall sick and be nice to Dr. Tang tomorrow.
Till the next… whining.
Hope not *winks*
Saloma better serves good food tis time.
Bitchy Bah! Emo Rant | Comment (1)dead end?
FOR GOD SAKE!!!!
I think am having mid life crisis. I think am going crazy. I think am becoming like the bear. I think am behaving like an ol woman now. Always whining and complaining. I think am going berserk. I think am being emotional lately. I can’t take this anymore. I think I wanna jump off the building thinking it’s better at home coz it’s on the 12th floor. Less painful. Or should I burn the office down.. no! no! wait a minute. I don’t want to injure other innocent peeps. Shit!
Just shoot me!
or him. Oh no don’t wanna be a killer. Tell me how do you change a person who is ol enough to be your dad without being rude at all. Talk nicely. Already. Bait him with sweets. Already. I can be the sarcastic bitch ever but only when I know I have back up plan and or when they means nothing to me.
But this is my rice bowl and I just can’t take it la. He’s a knowledge maniac and it’s killing me everyday. Wanna "vomit blood"….
Haiyo………. in my entire career history be it in the publishing, service, IT, govt. this is the worst experience la. Serious.. and you know what it’s not me alone so I’m not being really emo on this *sighs*
*sighs*
*sighs*
Then… I have choices. Some people can be cunning and know how to manipulate situation. I wish am one of them. But I know all these are testing from god. Yes. Must be strong. Must handle things accordingly. Must be smart! Oh goodness..
Life is tough! Tough! Tough! and I have what.. like another 30 years max to go through it!
F*ck!
I’m just crapping ya.. I need to get it out of ma system yo! Pardon moi!
Bitchy Bah! Emo Rant | Comments (6)T’was supposed to be last Thursday
Artsy Aidilfitri
Had nice dinner wif AsnieSunnies @Chakri…. lovely lovely thai food.
Dead satisfied and we did some girlie bitching. Normal lah. Red rubies oooh.. yummy yummy.
Few words stuck in my head today…
- wellwishers
- probing attack
- engine
- N93
- status
- emergency
- dns
- bala - who saves my life from the big bear
- usb
- cancerian
Oh well… captures of raya memento.
Remember I mentioned a handful of open houses I was at. Once a year.
The sky has a purple hue like the flower print on my baju 
@Mui’s place and HusniStylo chandelier hanging by the big ol tree. Genius!
All arts displayed @gemarimba, bukit tunku were below RM1k (during the open house).
I really like the painting far left below. Nice innit! Perfect for my home
The japanese designer (ashtray) is as good as Murukami of LV. I figured the price too!
See the lil girl in pinky patent boots. So cute and sporting to pose for me. Awww…
Glad I did my roundings this year. Good ol catching up. Couldn’t make it to few houses. Sorry.
Surprisingly I didn’t go to Zura’s after few years made it as a custom on 1st or 2nd day.
Well… she didn’t gimme a tinker this year. Wonder why… One can do as much innit!
Shout Out Spread The Love | Comment (0)De~ja~vu
Wham! Bang!
Another raya almost gone.
Another shoot has done.
Another girlie catching up went fabulously by…
another birthday to come and another month to new year!
That fast huh?! Almost everyday I came back home dozing off in front of the telly. Damn tired man. I know it’s a job but I gotta tackle it smartly.
I ain’t gonna bitch about work anymore ok. Maybe not tonight. Ha ha…
Let the snaps do the talking….
Shoot #1 : Ministry of Health. We’ll be animated!!!
Can you catch weirdyBob the main talent dozing off! Other talent is Parrie & Mei Ling and some dudes.. They served good food though.
Shoot #2 : Caltex Neighbourhood rewards. I’m the daughter.
It was kinda tiresome. I drove to and fro gazillion times at the pump and it was thunderstorm later.
Rina my supposedly mommy freaked out when there was not make up/hairstylist for the shoot. I just slapped on my juicy lip gloss. Not tat I wear make up all the time. I can live with it. Ha! Charles Mohan of ntv7 was really cool. Envy his spontaneity.
Bambam told me tat I smiled fakely. Yeah… can help it
*looks up*
He said his mom saw my earlier ad the toothpaste one. Gee I haven’t seen it myself.
Don’t laugh ok *cringes*
@Ponytail & Penang Village with LeedsCorrupt & LindaKinky.
A nite in Raffles City, Singapore. You gotta do the Singapore Sling!
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With AsnieSunnies & AidaGrillz at viCenCo@One Bangsar.
Lovely pasta and immaculate ambience.
Ok beautiful peeps will post up raya pix soon. Lastly, Bon nuit! xoxo
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the mood is here
2 psychedelic cool clips…
The day is full of eating, drinking, mingling, smiling & chatting. Lil bit of puffing.
Just gonna share this cool videos wif ya all.
Enjoy. It’s 10 pm and am going for another open house. Tee hee hee..
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complexity anguish
What my horoscope says:
If you’re about to take a trip, be sure to bring along a little bit more than you were planning to. Any travel within the next few days will include some surprises, and you should be prepared for an extended stay. You will accomplish everything you were hoping to accomplish on this journey, so you should step forward with confidence and optimism. If travel is not on your immediate horizon, start researching the places you want to go to next.
My life has been a great torture lately. Tired of bitching about the big bear to almost everyone.
I’m not joking I’ve been talking like him most of the time and it’s perilous! I don’t want to be a nutcase and blab, frown, angry and authoritative replica of him.
I’ve labelled him TCNA (Talk Cock No Action) 
Oh dear… life is tough. Lotsa things I wanna do and if only am lucky to have lotsa moolah I don’t have to put up with this absurdity. Patience and tats wat I’ve been telling myself.
Anyway, I’ve been up for almost 21 blardy hours *cry.cry.cry* Yeah, am worn out. Took the shuttle flight to Singapore yesterday evening straight after work and try my luck. More of understanding the offer.
Confused. Perplexed.
Don’t wanna be bamboozled to same ol crap.
First class. I miss it but is it wat I’m willing to sacrifice again? Selling my soul and be a greedy bitch. God is fair coz I can’t even be selfish to myself *sighs*
Still thinking but deep down I know I hate restrictions. I hate being controlled. I hate being ruled!
I like to live my life my own. Take it as wat may come but is it enough?
Darn.
Zoned out in the office arriving merely 6 hours later. Unbelievable.
But I always make my trip worthwhile. You know why… I’ve got myself a nice pink rose bubbly from Changi to cheer myself. Yes.. I love self indulgence. I’ve worked hard didn’t I?
Ok almost collapsing infront of this vaio.
Lotsa open houses to go later. Thank you. At least I know I have great friends.
Love ya all.
Good nite peeps. Bon nuit!
Bitchy Bah! Emo Rant | Comment (0)Round and round
I got ma script…
for the shoot this coming Tuesday. A damn short one *phew*…
Awfully hungry and came back wif ma fillet O fish, crispy salty fries and strawberry shake courtesy drive-in McD after the wardrobe fitting. Kinda satisfied.
3/11/2006
Straight to the point!!!!
Will ya! Puhleaseeee… am so blardy occupied wif work. Confirmed my boss is a nutcase. I appreciate that in this new workplace I’ve learned a lot of new things especially in the healthcare community. Am more aware on health info that actually not revealed or discuss & disseminate appropriately wif the public which relates to "human errors".
I’ve learned about knowledge management, strategic dynamics, system thinking, mental model, CoP, CoE but hey… these topics really bores me easily! (Yeah I know am in the wrong field but then again who actually lucky enough to do what they want right. I’m not born wif a silver spoon) I mean I don’t mind knowing a lil bit of info on what I should know but when he tries to shove in my brain everyday with his system thinking and not related to my main job scope it’s crrrrrraaaazzaaaayyyy.
It is hazardous to my HEALTH! *pulling hairs*
Gosh.. Patience.. patience.. His constant yapping also damn annoying.
Whatever… there’s always an arse in anywhere you work right unless you’re the boss and hopefully you don’t turn to one when you’re one *sighs*
I’m sleepy.. mentally drained to be exact. Didn’t even have time to get daily web dosage.
I hope tat big bear understand when I say I need to prioritize my work.
Otherwise… there’s always a choice innit.
Good nite and sweet dreams
p/s: Lotsa interesting peeps I bumped into over the weekend. Oh well later… gonna mentally and physically prepare for tomorrow. Yikes!
Oh ya some people just have disability to let go of their past. Move on lah and grow up biatch!!!!! Stop digging and reminiscing old tales. Boo…
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